Always been pretty healthy, though I have always had a weight problem. But not to this extreme. Now I find myself eating every time I have an emotional downfall. Yes!. I am an emotional eater. Always have been. My mom used to reward us with food after she abused us mentally. So when I am sad, stressed, I use food to make me feel better.

My weight really went out of control after my husband committed suicide. Then it seemed I got more and more depressed over the most simplest of thing....and used food to ease the pain. Soon, I wasn't even leaving the house because I was gaining weight and I hated the way I look.

I didn't even realized that I had not left the house in a year and a half...and started having health problem. When I found out how much I weighed, I cried.

Now I am trying to change all that and get my health and life back.......