"You have such a pretty face!"

Ever get tired of hearing something that's supposed to be meant as a compliment?

I do.

To me, those words mean, the only thing we think worthy of commenting positively on is your face.

That's why I'm here. I no longer feel comfortable inside of my own skin. I have pulled the fat suit over my head and hidden myself away inside of it.

Time to put it away. I need to feel alive again.

January 9, 2012: I am newly motivated once again. My marriage of 4 years is ending. I will be moving out of the home that my husband and I JUST bought 6 weeks ago as soon as I can. It's a new start for a new life. I will be leaving behind my 7 year old stepson, though I do plan to continue a very close relationship with him. This is such a huge move for me. I am scared. I am nervous. I am anxious about what life will hold, but I have found a courage inside of me that has been buried for a long time. Here I go. Try to stop me.

Starting over XXXX(8/22/11)XXXX December 19, 2011
By 12/31/11 Goal One: Under 310 pounds (broken 12/29/11:recorded 1/5/12)
By 1/31/12 Goal Two: Under 300 pounds (broken 1/23/12)
By 2/28/12 Goal Three: Under 294: Total loss 10% of start weight (32.6 pounds) -- (recorded 3/2/12 -- 293)
By 3/31/12 Goal Four: Under 280 pounds
By 4/30/12 Goal Five: Under 261 pounds: Total loss 20% of start weight (65.2 pounds)
By 5/31/12 Goal Six: Under 250 pounds
By 6/30/12 Goal Seven: Under 240
By 7/31/12 Goal Eight: Under 229 pounds: Total loss 30% of start weight (97.8 pounds)
By 8/30/12 Goal Nine: Under 215 pounds
By 9/31/12 Ultimate Goal: Under 200 pounds

Once I hit my first major goal, I will re-calculate and see where I am at that point! I can re-assess my goals then.