I was 230 pounds back in high school... I dropped down to 180 by the time I got out, thanks to Martial Arts; but, I never really got much below that, after about 3 or so more years I got down to 175... but that's still over weight for my height and I want to be better then that...

I owe a lot to FatSecret... I've been on here for a couple of years now... there was a time when I took it really seriously and because of my motivation and determination at the time I got my weight all the way down to 142... at the time I still thought I looked fat... I was exhausted and annoyed, I was always hungry, always frustrated, and I finally just gave up... I took what I had for granted, I didn't appreciate where I was in my weight and because of that I'm now all the way back up to 175 again... I've watched my body physically change into something I'm embarrassed of...

I think I had to gain the weight back though so I can really appreciate what I once had… what I had once worked so desperately hard to achieve... and I'm prepared to tackle all the pain and anger that comes with losing weight again... I will do whatever it takes to morph my body back into something I can be proud of, and this time I'll know better... I'll know to appreciate it, and stop calling myself fat at 142... Hell I'll be thrilled just to be in the Lower 150's again...

So here I am FatSecret turning to you once again... begging for your help thru this terrible time... help me get thru this transition, help me lose this weight, and I promise I'll never take it for granted again...

And I hope any females that struggles every day with their weight like I do will take note if they read my profile... Do NOT take your weight for granted, be proud and grateful for any weight you lose because when it comes back you'll miss that body you had, even if it wasn't the perfection you dreamed up in your head, TRUST ME you'll miss it...

I know I do…
So here we go...