I'm a stay at home mom, I love my husband & daughter more than anyone in the world. I have struggled with my weight for just about my whole life, & there was a very small frame in time that I enjoyed the way that I looked. In high school I was 140 & everyone gave me a hard time because I was 'fat,' & I hated myself for it. Now, I'd give anything to be 140 again. My goal is 135. I was voted best dressed back then so I have a serious attachment to my clothes as a tool for self expression, now I wear whatever hides my fat the best, whether I like it or not. I don't wear colors very often & tend to stick to black, gray, & brown. While I wore those colors before, I didn't limit myself to them. At the end of my pregnancy I weighed exactly 70 lbs. heavier than I did in school, 35 from college, & 35 I gained during pregnancy, I've lost most of the pregnancy weight, but 44 still lingers, & I'd love so much to say goodbye to it all.
Another struggle I have with maintaining a diet is that I'm an great cook. I bake, I cook, I do it all, & I love to eat, good food, whether or not its good for me was no concern, portions were non existent, I just ate til I couldn't anymore.
I started fatsecret almost 2 weeks ago now, & my entire view on portion control & exactly what I put in my body has been totally changed. Am I tempted? Yes. Have I swayed? Once. (So Far) But I still stayed within my RDI, although I didn't feel good about it. Mostly, I'm glad for my commitment to this lifestyle change, because I know that not only will it help me drop the weight, but I'll be healthier, I can't imagine what all the butter, white flour, sugar, & fatty meats were doing to my body on the inside. I expect this journey to be treachorous, I know I will stumble, but "My help comes from the Lord." It is my goal to lose the remaining 40 lbs. by this fall. Wish me luck, & the same to you in your own endeavors.