Annisworkingonit- Журнал, 28 июн 24

Hello FS friends,

Well this journey cerainly is not a linear one. My friend who is now back in town and I went to a show at the Casino - the Clairvoyants. It was OK, however magic acts aren't really my thing. Music on the other hand most certainly is and given our pattern so far this year, odds are there will be more concerts upcoming. Before I used them to lift my spirits to face the cancer journey with John ahead. Going forward, they will be a break from the grieving process. Music has been a part of my life forever and has the power to uplift.

I guess I forgot to mention that it was my birthday a couple of days before John's passing. Needless to say it was a non event given we were in chemo and radiation the bulk of the day. The day prior to my birthday as we were driving home, we stopped at a garage sale. There was a beautiful bronze statue of a mermaid - 4 ft long, 2 ft high - big and heavy. I quite liked it but came to the conclusion that at the moment we could not afford it, nor could we move it. John told me on Saturday morning just minutes before the end that he had gone back the next day on my birthday after I had left to go to the concert to get it for me (I'm impossible to buy for). Sadly it was gone. I talked to the guy yesterday, and sure enough John had gone back and according to the guy was gutted that it was gone. John, thank you for thinking of me. He did get me a lovely card (which I cannot find anywhere at the moment...I suppose I put it in a very safe place.) Would hate to think that it went out in Tuesdays garbage, but then again, chaos has been the norm lately.

Yesterday I ate. On my way home from the show, I stopped at the grocery store to pick up some fruit, then wandered the store to see if there was anything at all that might create a craving. Ended up with a small bag of pierogies, which I cooked with leftover bacon and ate. It put me over my daily caloric budget, but I've been running at too great a deficit. Did I like it? It was OK. Did it sit well with me? Nah. Woke up with wicked indigestion at 3AM. The other dumb thing I did was not take the sleep aid thinking lets see how it goes. Indigestion and panic attack and an inability to fall back asleep....not a good thing.

And so it goes. This too will pass.

Over and out

A picture of John and I 6 days prior to his passing

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