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Good morning FS friends
Yesterday was a good day. Got a decent nights sleep thanks to a prescription from my GP. Woke up at the crack of dawn to see the Mighty Niagara River covered in a mist. She was beautiful. Round about 7AM scads of cyclists started passing by. Turns out it was the cross border endurance route for the Roswell Park Ride for Cancer (oh the irony).
Given how hot and sunny the day became, the river was active with jet skiers, boats, fishermen and even the odd cigar boat. Needless to say, once the bike ride was over the Parkway was fully opened and the usual summer happenings began. Lots of motorcycle clubs going by 20-30 riders at a time. (some sorrow with this one as John realised a lifelong dream last year, got his motorcycle license and had started to ride his Harley Road King albeit cautiously). The classic cars, some real beauties. Just watching the usual goings on would have brought pleasure to John. We used to call it Parkway TV.
By mid afternoon, things seemed too quiet in the house. Where normally I'd go outside and garden, it was simply too hot to do this safely. The dogs are confused and a wee bit lost as dad (their treat dispenser) isn't here and mom is a bit "off". I decided that I'd package some of John's ashes before his family removes them and went on a memorial journey of my own. First went to Timmies in Fort Erie, got a medium Iced Capp (John's favourite during the summer) and 300 empty but needed calories for me. Then proceeded to stop at each place we had fished, swam or launched our boat and leave a bit of him at each one until I got home. Today I will continue on with the mission from my house to the other spots along the way, all the way to Port Dalhousie. In the weeks to come, I'll go to Port Colbourne at the mouth of the canal and do the same. It feels right as this was our couple thing and something his sons never participated in. Is it closure? No. But it helps and he would appreciate it in absentia. Other memorials planned by his family, employer and the Masons are appropriate and deserved but less meaningful to me regarding our life and time together.
By evening, the lawn needed mowing, so I did. Finally ate a leftover burger from when the boys were here last week. Didn't finish it, but it's a start.
One week down. Several personal grieving milestones met. Many more to go, but one day/week/year at a time. There is no timeline but having walked this awful path before, there will be light at the end of the tunnel and someday joy may reenter the equation.
Over and out
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