This is the heaviest I have ever been BUT also the happiest I have ever been. My motivation for losing weight is to fit my clothes again! I have been on a whirl wind romance for the past year and gained 20lbs in the process. My man still looks at me lovingly and thinks I look exactly the same. However, my clothes don't agree, lol. It is great to have that love and unconditional support with no pressure. I am really doing this for myself and that feels great.