Lost another 2.2 lbs of water and down to 195.6 this a.m. That makes 4.4 lbs of water in 2 days. Wow, I'm getting good at this! LOL. I'm not just the ultimate water tank, I'm the ultimate water dispenser!
All joking aside, I made a judicious decision and have decided to clock my weight only when I see a new stated low. Initially when I was conditioned naively to believe the scale was the end all and be all of recording weight loss, I saw the point of a weekly weigh in. But, given how many genuine fluctuations I've come to see in a week amidst those moments when I see a "new stated low", it makes me want to literally "laugh my ass off" at how much emphasis I have put on that number. It really is a joke. In fact, I find it almost funny how much I can toy with the number within a 5lb range based solely on how much water I do or don't drink. It actually deflates the pleasure of a loss.
Like I said, new stated lows are wonderful when I get them, but I prefer to put the emphasis on inches lost and using calipers to measure body fat %. In fact, I notice when I use those tools to assess loss, perspective of body image becomes more acute. It's been very affirming to say, "I think I've lost some inches in my hips", go to measure and see I'm correct. That being stated, next measure and caliper day is Sunday. I had to skip last weekend because I was out of town.
In other news, I threw down a wicked workout last night. I probably pushed a little too hard, but I gotta confess exercise for me is sometimes an outlet to work through and sweat out a lot of different emotions. It's better than drinking a bottle of wine. I'm full of gratitude to have the life I live now and finally able to enjoy it for the most part. But, I still have a lot of crazy emotions and thoughts to battle with, especially since I've been walking this fat loss journey and have increased sobriety.
DAMN SOBRIETY! LOL
Although, to be fair I feel we all have some internal struggle with something, even if we're not always aware of it. And, despite the craziness of it all and how tough it's been at times to re-build my life in the past seven years, there's a lot of things I'm thankful for. So, let's count them!
1. I'm thankful I'm alive.
2. I'm thankful I had the courage to make this move here with my mom 5 years ago and reconnect with my love of nature and discover the joy of birding & Raptors!
3. I'm thankful for this job. It may not be the specialized career I had before, but I enjoy it and I genuinely appreciate and respect my co-workers.
4. I'm thankful, despite all this body has been through, it's still able to help me function and do things in life that bring me joy.
5. I'm thankful for my stamina and perseverance
6. I'm thankful to live a life that leaves me feeling a lot less fear, anxiety, and stress.
7. I'm thankful this body can let go of water as easily as it retains it! lol
8. I'm thankful to the makers of NSAIDS
9. I'm thankful I will have enough money this check to get a fitbit
10. I'm thankful this body knows how to swim and can enjoy the wonderful weightlessness that water provides, when my body's not retaining it! hehe
Have a wonderful day, everyone! Don't forget to consider what about your own body you're thankful for...
