Sigh! I’ve been down this road before... Lost 25kgs in just over two months - went from a size 14 to a size 8. I’m pretty tall for a woman - 1.87m - so I looked really, really thin. Had friends calling me from all over the world, literally crying and asking me if I was dying. It was hectic - but I loved the way it felt to try on clothes and they’d be too big.. I was exercising 1-4hrs a day (generally did 45-60mins cardio, then a Pilates class, followed by a yoga class; sometimes I’d do an hour roller derby in the eve as well). I was having a protein shake for bfast, a smoothie for lunch, and rice and mushrooms for dinner (sometimes just veg/just a chicken breast). The worst part of this all was that no matter how thin I got - I still felt like I could lose more. It became an obsession. I would say I was bordering on an eating disorder. Sometimes I’d get ringing in my ears from not eating. I’d feel faint and as though I was about to pass out. My hair started falling out and my cheekbones literally had shadows under them. But that still didn’t stop me.
Until one day, someone very close to me made a horrendously nasty comment about my weight - I wanted some McDonald’s as a 02:30am snack after a night out - and he called me a ‘fat disgusting pig’ (keep in mind I was already underweight) and that destroyed me.
Fast forward 2 years later and I’m 35kgs heavier. Now a size 16 - literally DOUBLE my old size... In all fairness, I was put on the wrong medication for 5yrs for a condition that I don’t actually even have- and that made me pick up a TON of weight. But I have always been a ‘bigger’ girl- being so tall, but I was always a size 12, which was healthy for my weight. But I’ve always felt huge next to the petite 1.5m girls who weigh like 50kg... My weight has affected me for as far back as I can remember, and I have been dieting and exercising and binge eating for years.
At the moment, I’m struggling to find the motivation to lose the weight again. I feel exhausted from the years and years of worrying about my weight. I just want to be healthy and feel comfortable in my clothing (and I have the most amazing wardrobe - fashion is my forte, haha) - I have tons of brand new clothing hanging in my cupboard that I can’t wear, because I’m too fat. But the more disheartened I feel, the more I eat. I’m such an emotional eater and I don’t know how to stop eating my feelings!
Nevertheless - I have to start this journey yet again, but this time with a different mindset- fit and healthy, not dying (literally) to fit into a size 8 again. So tonight I am having a ‘farewell fat’ dinner - going to eat my last supper, as far as unhealthy food is concerned, and then I’m back on this band wagon again- hopefully for good this time !!
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17 мар 18 написано членом: Tanyabull
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good luck I know how you feel you can do this!
18 мар 18 написано членом: jade electro ink
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Thanks guys ☺️ All the best to you toooo! ✨🐼✨
18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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You not alone this family is amazing with support . Go for it again
18 мар 18 написано членом: wendylou62
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Thanks Wendy! I was scrolling through the posts on the app yesterday and saw what a supportive community this is - and decided to just do this! Looking forward to all to come- the good days and the bad days- they all lead us to a healthier and happier future 😊
18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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18 мар 18 написано членом: Cheron@1
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Thanks Cheron! And ditto! 😊
18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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All the best will follow your progress!!
18 мар 18 написано членом: LouiseTorr
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Thanks Louise!! I’ve seen your progress and you have done amazingly well! Congrats 😊
18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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commend u on your honesty ... ppl are real jerks sometimes. try getting into a size smaller a month I'm sure our bodies talk to us all the time listen to that I feel keeping the calorie deficit eat less than 100 carbs a day is good... I hv a cheat meal coz cravings are painful but it makes me feel so guilty n the rest of the week I'm good progress is slow but I'm happy better than I used to be .... 1 day at a time to better food choices... I'm Indian and it's really hard to give up all the tasty stuff ... I'm a size 12 now if I can get in s sexc snug fit 34 I'm gonna maintain I like the full figured sexc body type ... not skinny
18 мар 18 написано членом: Devika1988
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And you have already achieved it queen👑
18 мар 18 написано членом: ziyakgothi
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Devika - thank you for your advice and for sharing your tips with me! I appreciate it 😊 and I can just imagine how hard it must be to give up all the yummy Indian cuisine! I’m Dutch, and we also have some very yummy but very unhealthy treats 🙈 but everything in moderation is good; I truly believe that. However, I want to lose a considerable amount of weight before I get into the moderation thing haha 🙈 cheat meals are a great idea - but I’m going to actually try keep them healthy, too - just not as healthy as my usual meals haha!
Ziya - I love that!! Thank you so much ✨☺️✨ and yes - the journey has officially begun!
18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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I am in the same boat as you.. Used to play provincial level squash and hockey - I was in far better shape than I EVER saw myself as but then life happened and ...you know how it goes. This year I had to have surgery for something unrelated and it just got me to the point where I'd had enough, I wanted to for once look in the mirror and see at least a semi decent looking guy and I was tired of feeling like crap all the time so I started too. Been going for only a few weeks now but its going well so far - pretty much got through my first keto flu... My point is just that so far, in all honesty, starting seems to have been the hardest part. So good job getting on this train, you're not as alone on it as you might think. ✌:)
18 мар 18 написано членом: tristanjvr
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Hey Tristan! Thank you for sharing with me 😊 it’s definitely a case of that ‘enough’ realisation for a lot of people! I think it’s amazing that we are all on the road to improving ourselves, for ourselves! I always believe that there is no point in trying to become the best version of someone else - you have to become the best version of YOU. And the support and encouragement are definitely positive contributing factors towards that goal! Well done on doing so well thus far! ✨inspired✨
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18 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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Miss Kyla thank you for sharing your story. I think the most important thing is to love who you are and feel good. Stick thin aint the goal anymore but better health better feelings , positive outlook and above all perseverance for balance, No diet is perfect , no weight is perfect and age creeps up on us all. I was diagnosed with biopolar and that medication basically made me pick up 10kg - i have been horrified by its effects and now ive stopped the meds but my body has changed completely.
now im here trying everyday to keep it up like all of you.
Just wanna say thanks for sharing and your story is inspiring ! gonna keep supporting you ! you can do anything you set your heart n mind to !
19 мар 18 написано членом: Emjai Milev
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Miss Kyla thank you for sharing your story. I think the most important thing is to love who you are and feel good. Stick thin aint the goal anymore but better health better feelings , positive outlook and above all perseverance for balance, No diet is perfect , no weight is perfect and age creeps up on us all. I was diagnosed with biopolar and that medication basically made me pick up 10kg - i have been horrified by its effects and now ive stopped the meds but my body has changed completely.
now im here trying everyday to keep it up like all of you.
Just wanna say thanks for sharing and your story is inspiring ! gonna keep supporting you ! you can do anything you set your heart n mind to !
19 мар 18 написано членом: Emjai Milev
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P.s also tried many diets before , starvation included and in all honesty what i lacked was support from others. I got back on the train recently but now i see we all there. starting is the hardest part and specially when everyone around you eats whatever they want . those damb 18year olds with their young bodies and skin make me feel so inferior but i need to learn to love myself and we all can agree this is so important
19 мар 18 написано членом: Emjai Milev
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Hi Emjai! Ahhh thank you so much for sharing your story too! I can completely relate - the condition I was treated for was also bipolar - I was misdiagnosed and on the wrong meds for 5yrs (Abilify being the main culprit). So yeah - my metabolism is shot, my self-esteem is shot, and my motivation is only at 25%, haha! But you are completely right - balance and health! And definitely not to compare ourselves to other people. Each person is their own version of beautiful and the right people to be in your life are the ones who will recognise that beauty instantly ✨☺️✨
19 мар 18 написано членом: MissiKayla89
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Sad 😔, don't listen to negative feedback from other people, focus on your self, it is your journey
19 мар 18 написано членом: barkerwelkom
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all the best you can do this👌
19 мар 18 написано членом: Cziny
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