Happy*Snappy- Журнал, 08 дек 17

It was a rough morning today! i have been trying not to use my diuretic too much so I was expecting a gain..... but ...... dog gone it! 4 #!!!!!

Then I almost tumbled down the stairs because my pants are sooo long...... for some reason the looser they get the longer they seem to be. Or maybe it's just that I never saw how long they were because I couldn't see past my belly!

I stopped at Lane Bryant today ..... I have avoided going to stores because I hate trying stuff on and having to order it because they don't carry my size. It is embarrassing and depressing......I hate it, hate it, hate it!! I grabbed some jeans 2 sizes down from what I was wearing when this all started and headed for the dressing room ..... not looking forward to three sets of mirrors glaring at me. It's hard to lie to yourself when you see that reflection convicting you of your choices.

I tried them on and sat down. The lady came by to see if I needed anything. When I handed her the other jeans and asked for a smaller size my hands were shaking. She brought me the next two sizes. After an hour of back and forth we got it figured out.

I sat in that dressing room and sobbed. I ended up buying jeans that are 5 sizes smaller than when I started 6 months ago.

If you want to freak people out have a complete breakdown in a dressing room!!

I haven't worn jeans in years ... mainly because I wasnt comfortable buying a 30 or 32. I stuck with yoga pants because 3xs that fit tight sounds better and didn't make me feel quite as enormous as I had let myself get - regardless of how they looked. They were also very forgiving if I gained a few pounds. I'm going home to throw them away.

I also did something today that I always said I'd never do. I bought a pair of jeans in a size smaller than what I'm currently in. Before I never wanted to tempt fate. TO HELL WITH FATE! Fate no longer has a place here. Choices....my choices. Every day. Every meal. My body - My rules (thank you so much for that rallying cry - it's been a God send for me every day).

Someone commented awhile back that they found it motivating to have someone tell them or act like they couldn't accomplish what they had set out to do. I'm with you 100% on that. I dare anyone to give me that 'we'll see' look. I DARE you.

I may be a chaotic mess but dammit I'm a chaotic mess moving closer to my goals!

127,0 кг Потеряно до сих пор: 25,6 кг.    Еще предстоит сделать: 44,9 кг.    Следовательность диеты: Достаточно Хорошо.

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