jimmiepop- Журнал, 26 дек 20

D5
34 hours fasted.

Apparently I found a light spot on the scales yesterday. Thankfully relocated it this morning, averting the dreaded fasted weight gain. Christmas is tomorrow this year, due to family logistics and travel. Took advantage of the quiet house yesterday to scrub the floors. Good to keep moving. The house feels dead without the kids. This season has often found me deep in the feels, and this year is no exception.

Pop wanted to help, which trebles any task. Somehow being with someone of his diminished capacity feels lonlier than being alone. Old age, it would seem, separates the relationship wheat and chaff as effectively as divorce.

Call it macabre, but I have been contemplating his eulogy of late, and took the opportunity to clarify some particulars of his experience teaching in a one room school house in 1943. It seems a bizarre and cruel trick that this he can recall with relative ease, while things like turning on the water or using a razor can escape him. He's been asking recently about a variety of people who have been dead many decades. In his day, he had a sharp mind and a razor tongue, which he did not spare. He raised me to never gladly suffer fools. Rich now, that.

I have preached to the kids that we are each responsible for our own feels. That the path to resolution is inward. And so to my Christmas floor...

Peace.

90,5 кг Потеряно до сих пор: 5,6 кг.    Еще предстоит сделать: 6,6 кг.    Следовательность диеты: Достаточно Хорошо.