Like so many people, my weight and names have been the most thoughts I have know all my life!!! I have always been the largest in any group from as far back as I can remember. The jest of every one!! I think about weight loss every single moment. I go to bed thinking about it and awake to find same thoughts lingering in my mind. I have made many attempts to lose weight but to no avail. I am hoping that this will be my last hurdle and not fall over this time. I have decided to go the surgical route, after 40 years of trying to lose weight, gain weight and all the yoyo activities to do with this topic. It is not the easiest decision to make but hey, if I want to enjoy the rest of the life and be blessed with or have kids, I must do what I must do... Tired of pills for blood pressure, tired of not finding the right clothes to wear, tired of not fitting into the train seats or being caught between the ticket barriers, tired of being the recipient of all weight loss wisdoms and their providers. Along with this, I have now given up dairy milk and switched to seed/nut milk instead. I will miss my tea and milkshakes but, this is a journey and I am sure there will be substitutes out there to compensate for what I may be missing. I have started off with Almonds and now, venturing into hemp and sunflower seed milk - homemade. So, no more pretence or trying to please anyone as this is for me now and me alone!! Wish me well, is all I ask!! But first, I shall try the lemon detox, raw vegetable, low cab diet, 5:2 diets and if they work, I shall call off the surgery.... :)