I am a 42 y/o female.

I used to have weight loss goals with dates in here but I did not deliver on any goals on time. So, I am going to remove the date from my target weight.

I want to be 130 lbs because that is how much I weighed in my 20s and I felt very comfortable with my body. I was never able to get back there after having my kids. If I get to 134-136 lbs and look too thin, I will stop there. What is for sure is that I need to lose a few pounds to be more comfortable.

I am not an alcoholic but would love to quit alcohol. The reason is that I use alcohol as a coping mechanism to not face reality. Too depressed, drink. Too shy at a gathering, drink. Miss friends/family, drink. Having a bad day at work, drink. You get what I am saying. I just want to deal with life instead of hiding behind alcohol. I have not been able to quit drinking altogether yet, but I have been able to only have a couple of drinks a month. I would like to cut that out too. Plus, the benefits of no drinking on middle age skin, wow!!!!

I have had debilitating bouts of depression since my kids were born. I hide it from everyone close to me. It ends up coming out as fits of extreme bitchiness (to loved ones) and crying (alone). Regular exercise helps but I have a hard time exercising when my brain shuts down. When the fog clears, I cannot remember why or how I gave in to my faulty brain. So, I end up with no preventative tools.

I am an extreme introvert. Having to deal with people for my kids, work, and to make my social husband happy, drains me to no end. Yet, I like being close to people. I just do not want to interact with them. I don't know if I am extremely strange or if other people can relate to me. I would like to improve in that area too, not be such a weirdo, but I don't even know where to start :)

That is me in a nutshell.