Naiomy- Журнал, 04 май 12

EDIT: this journal is a little extra... more of a wake up for me.. u may proceed with caution


no loss today, but i've shrugged it off... still have tomorrow, and i've been having tummy troubles which i'm sure are contributing to the stall... looking at my weight, trying not to get frustrated that i'm still in the 170s...
made me remember at the time a few months ago when i was at 191... and stood there for weeks... then finally a drop... felt good seeing that 188... and now i'm like 2 lbs from 160s... i guess i need a reality check.. i look better than i've looked... probably ever to be honest with u... i feel good..fit in just about EVERY pair of jeans in my closet.. which was never the case even at my lowest weight... my bff gave me all these jeans that were too big for her and i kept them for goals.. they all fit!...

my fiance (aww so cute to say that)thinks i look amazing and is so incredibly proud of me... i need to stop all this negativity when i don't get my way. she made a good point to me the other day.. "you know, when you have a drop on the scale, you always say "eh, coulda done better.." but when u stall or have an increase, you let it ruin ur day and are inconsolable. is that really fair?"..

damn... i do do that... never celebrate my losses as much as i complain about my gains.

as of my last weigh in, i've dropped a total of 61.2 lbs, since i started dieting again in december, i've dropped 26.8. My goal for 2012 was 22.4, and i've lost 15.6 so far. i am 6.8 from my goal weight, and less than a whole size away from my ultimate goal.. to be in a size 8. I wasn't even this small at my lowest weight.. and i've managed to do all this while still keeping my quality of life, enjoying my weekends with my family, enjoying great food every week, and also while i'm unable to workout like i would like to.

time to fkg celebrate Naiomy, get ur head out of ur ass... :)