unity1234- Журнал, 25 окт 23

Leah_guffey, yes! For sure... 

Unity seriously? 48? No kidding i truly thought you were one of these 20 something puppies😂🥰. You cant see me but im gobsmacked right now. Wow wow wow wow wowwwwwwww 

Keep it up 👍🏼 

Swayneman, I am sorry to learn your buddy passed. 💙 The unconditional love I feel from animals is such a calming aspect of life. I try to be that. Animals don't hold grudges, they don't judge, they don't act superior... they just are.  

Swayneman, you know what I mean? The truth of this might have just hit home. Animals don't apologize for the way they are or make themselves 'smaller' or 'lesser'.. A peacock doesn't hide its feathers, those beauties just fan out. They own that.  

Yearofhealth2023, I'd ask you to move in, but before that, can you call my mom? Ha ha ha! Thank you so much! It really feels good to soak up praise every once in a while. 💙 is it my ego knocking? Yup. But, in moderation, is heart-felt praise so wrong? We all benefit from allowing more softness and gentleness with ourselves.  

Sam Penya, thank you! 

I definitely know what you mean. That's the main reason why I haven't gotten anymore pets because of the pain I felt when he passed. You get so attached to them, they become part of the family. It sucks that they don't live as long as we do. I don't know if I want to go through that pain again.  

Unity i would totally move in except….i LOVE my hubs and my little (and big) monsters with four legs. I have had pets (tho i hate to use that word because they are like fluffy family with more legs) my entire life. Which means i have lost many pets. Horses, cats, dogs, a bird, one time a prairie dog. The pain they leave behind is real but there are so so many animals out there that need a protector and savior. That have experienced pain themselves and will love you so deeply. Please take time to grieve and then open your heart again to save and love another fluffy bundle of happiness. Who do you know in your life that will love you no matter what you weigh, if you have bad breath, are in a bad mood or are happy? The give back is so huge. Sorry to go on about this but your heart will be filled twice as much as the emptiness that is there from the loss. And i know the loss is huge. I have tears in my eyes as im typing this just remembering all the loves ive had. Xoxo 

killing at as always 💪 

OTB, thanks, man... life has been such, that a pick me up was due. I appreciate your support. 💙 All is well, just intense feelings to deal with. I'm in a good place and much of that is due to feeling comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my life. Feels like it is worth celebrating, you know?  

Swayneman, I love my cats. 💙 They kinda drive me nuts, but I love 'em. 

Yearofhealth2023, 💙I love the love you feel for those furry companions. I had to think about what you wrote regarding deep love/loss. This is a sore point for me, I think. I may have been protecting myself against this type of vulnerable love. It is challenging to allow myself this type of connection. I know why this is true but I am still working on rewiring my nervous system so that it doesn't fear vulnerability. In a way, that is what my weight-loss-self-love journey has been about. If I can love myself at a very true and deep level, with all perceived flaws, maybe I can allow myself to share that genuineness with another. Not now, but eventually. It is not time now. But I can learn to love me and that's not nothin'.. Thank you. 

Looking good! 

Unity i wish i could give you a big hearty hug. I was 43 years old before i could accept that i was a good, kind person. I had heard all of my life that i was a “bad kid.” I wasn’t, i didnt drink, do drugs, smoke. Wasn’t disrespectful, got good grades. Just had a dysfunctional family. For some, it is quite a road to allow yourself the grace to know you are worthy of being loved. Even if just by yourself. I told my then 17 year old daughter when i first started dating hubs that he was too good, kind and trusting for someone like me. She looked at me and said, “you deserve him. You are good and kind. You take care of me, you take care of grandma and you work really hard.” I thought about it for a minute and then something unfroze in my heart. Am i good? Am i kind? I didnt think so because of the voices from my youth but my actions showed differently. I started to love myself a little that day and more every day since. It’s better late than never Unity. Love yourself. Know you are worthy. Allow yourself to be vulnerable. Will you get hurt? Most certainly. There is always pain that comes with an open heart. From people, from animals. But we are here to give and receive love. It’s how we were designed. God bless you on your journey. You have a really good start.💕 

Yearofhealth, very well said. I enjoy reading your positivity. ❤️ 

Said from the very bottom of my heart to the top. Don’t know if my post came thru. Been having connectivity problems. Yeesh. I do sound a bit of a hot mess but i promise you in real life no one would ever know. I have a great public persona😂 

Yearofhealth2023, I so needed that; and I feel that hug... thank you. If you had asked me if I loved myself, I would've said, 'yes.' If someone had asked me if I was worthy of love, I would have said, yes. But after watching my behavior, I noticed that so many of my actions were a reflection of a belief in lack of worth. Once I became aware that my beliefs were not the same as my thoughts, I was able to better address the situation. Examining my thoughts to check for validity has served me well. Yearofhealth2023, your daughter was right about you. You are a kind-hearted person. 💙 

Yearofhealth2023, I think we all, in our own right and way, are hot messes. I think that is what makes us perfectly imperfect human beings. I too have a great public persona and am in leadership, but at the end of the day, when I strip back the layers of the role I play, or the mask I wear, or the facade I put on for the world around me, I see a complexity of a beautiful mess, of which I embrace. Embrace that beautiful hot mess of yours, because it is what makes you authentic you!! 

Awwwww thank you unity. It took me many decades to be able to accept and tell you thank you. Thank you honey. That conversation with my daughter was in 2007. And i remember every moment vividly. I knew i was a good, loving affectionate mother always but accepting the rest. Wow. So thank you again sweetie pie.