Yelizzle- Журнал, 21 июн 22

This month has been good, I’ve danced more than I’ve ever danced in my life. I’ve laughed and smiled more than I have ever before. I’m not even on antidepressants! I’ve been happy all on my own. Where did this strength and self love come from? I have no idea. If I knew I would tell all the broken hearted souls where to get it from. For the first time in what feels like a decade I’m excited and anxious to LIVE. To just live. Today it was 109 Fahrenheit outside but walking outside letting the hot sun hit my face didn’t make me hate living here lol. I feel blessed to be alive and feel the sun we take for granted work it’s magic & tan my skin, just not too much. I think all the parties are over this week and then I will weigh myself.
PS. Future me, you made it 48 days without a drop of alcohol! Only drank to celebrate to new beginnings & then danced the night away. So far you haven’t picked up a glass or bottle to cry or mourn what was lost. You haven’t seen him though, don’t rush it. You still stay behind the screen door as your baby runs to him when it’s his week to get her. And you stay inside when he drops her off. No phone calls everything is via text messages.