alhuey- Журнал, 10 окт 13

Just occured to me that I have to get into a cocktail dress in 3 weeks (11/2). Yikes! Thankfully, it is the last wedding of the season. I don't want to put too much pressure on myself, but I also want to feel comfortable with my appeareance in a dress. Tomorrow I plan to take my measurements so that I don't rely on my weight as the only indicator of success.

The last few nights, I have had difficultly avoiding late night eating. I find it so difficult when I am up very late. Sometimes I have eaten just as a way to help me stay awake/keep my engergy up while bouncing Evie to sleep (I've had to bounce for almost 2 hours a few occasions).

At this moment, the thought of introducing real exercise is daunting. I am able to fit in random 5 minute spurts here and there throughout the day, but this isn't sufficient for weight losss.

I've been frustrated recently. Mostly, I resent that my husband gets two fun weekends away (back-to-back none-the-less). Statisticaly, couples who keep tallies are less successful than couples who do not keep track - i know this. But, knowing this hasn't stopped the thoughts that 'he owes me' from creeping up. I gave him permission to go for crying out loud.