strawberry1972- Журнал, 28 сен 08

My dad came over for supper tonight. I am very happy to have him here visiting me and the kids because it gets him out of the house.

He has been pretty shook up since mom died a little over a week ago. He has his moments when he is fine, and then he gets beyond upset and cries.

I need to make sure that he is allright-my #1 concern is him and my children right now.

I am also getting pretty nervous about the surgery I have to have this coming Friday. I will be having that surgery only 2 weeks to the day, that mom passed away! It is scary because I don't do too well during surgery.

I think I will definitely be scared going in, but brave coming out. I will need a hysterectomy and I feel, once it is done, I will feel 110% better!

Today, I went to the gym and burned about 700 calories. It felt great! The coolest part was when I was talking to my mom out loud (luckily no one was at the gym to laugh or think I was crazy-but I DO talk to mom all the time) and then I smelled a bouquet of flowers-the very same flowers that we had at her funeral. It was amazing because at that moment, I had asked her to watch me run and I needed to know if she was there. Right away, I smelled the flowers. It was truly a blessing because I know she was there with me, watching me!!!!

Mom-I love and miss you so much, but I am allright at times because I know you are near.