girlygirlatheart- Журнал, 20 июн 08

Well.... i havent been on here in a month because my computer was broken. I had a brown out- followed by a complete black out- and my power supply was shot.
I'm so glad its fixed now!
And has it been quite a month of frustration.
I have really come to realize how much the fatsecret community has helped me.
Back in the beginning of june, some of you may have remembered my left leg was hurting and making exercising difficult for me.
Its much better now that I have been to the doctors. Turns out I have arthritis in my hip, AND a damaged nerve. Sometimes one or the other will flare up, but for the most part i am doing much, much better. Thank god!
But, i am pretty frustrated that i have only lost 6 pounds between the time my computer died and now. Thats 6 pounds in 30 days. I'd be satisfied with ten pounds, and hell, i would have liked to do even better than ten. I'm honestly so sick and tired of trying and strugglig- trying and struggling. Its a battle I'm winning, but at a painfully slow rate. So slow that it seems i'm not winning at all.
This last week, i really felt like giving up. I felt hungry when I normally didnt want to eat, and I ate a lot of things I should not have, or that I would otherwise find unacceptable to eat... Like nuts, avacados, cream cheese and ice cream. I also ate before bed last night. I feel like I have failed. At least I havent gained any weight though. Thank god.

Anyways, I'm back now, and more motivated to get back on track and keep going! yessss!