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One week ago, I saw a small shadowy figure from my past in my dimly lit closet. Sadly, we were once much closer and we spent time together regularly.
Unfortunately, my relative weight loss success had convinced me that I was smarter now, that my lifelong issues with food were behind me and that I no longer needed him.
As the months of eating well multiplied, I spent less and less time tracking my food accurately. If I did track my food I did it half ass, not truthfully or not at all. It had been months since I actually ate at or below my calorie limits and even though I wasn't eating as I had done my whole life...I was slowly but surely moving steadily in that direction!
I rarely if ever weighed myself for fear of the truth. I believe I weighed myself last fall and then again in February of 2019. Neither occasion was reason for celebration.
SO... as I stared at it, it brought back a flood of memories, mostly negative information and feedback. I bent over, picked it up and dusted it off.
I laid it down, took a deep breathe and apprehensively stepped on it. It read 299.8lbs. That was so sad! I was sad, disappointed and ashamed of myself.
I was literally 8lbs from my starting point. The reason I started at all was because my life depended on it and now I was almost right back at the beginning but yet, another year and a half older. I had promised myself that I would never be that man again, and yet I still was!
The moral of the story is this...it never stops being hard! Being obese, heavy or just overweight is a life deficit in every way imaginable. Your quality of life is always impacted negatively. Does that mean you are worth less? Heck no!
I have been a prisoner of obesity most of my life. It hasn't stopped me from being a good athlete but if I hadn't been overweight, I may have been great! I may have had the courage to take new opportunities, try new things and meet new people...but I didn't and I wouldn't. Why? Because I was self-conscious and always physically compromised.
One week later, I am weighing myself daily now and will continue to do so.
I will track my food, be honest with myself and hold myself accountable.
Today, I forgive myself and my scale! We have re-committed ourselves to a longterm relationship!
I love you scale!
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I always know that things are not good when I'm avoiding the scale. Glad to hear that you two are getting real again.
14 июл 19 написано членом: erikahollister
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14 июл 19 написано членом: Jopenn
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We are a family here to support you any way we can!!! Stepping up and staying faithful to yourself is a very positive thing to do You deserve a healthier lifestyle so best wishes for your future success 🙏🏻😊
14 июл 19 написано членом: gsn fan
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You are not alone by any means. I am normal weight and monitoring my intake, activity and my weight keeps me on track. For me, my nutritional status is first and foremost and I monitor many things that are not on FS. I practice portion control and moderation with no food group being excluded. Think lifestyle change and develop a way of eating that you can live with for the rest of your life—one that does not involve deprivation and guilt.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Kenna Morton
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Words cannot tell you how this hit me. I am right there with you. But we've got this! Time to step up!
14 июл 19 написано членом: lacc333
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Thank you folks! This on again/ off again relationship with Scale just got real.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Fatboy199
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I understand. Your journal entry is very motivating.
14 июл 19 написано членом: sallkr3
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Keyten77 is a very smart girl— follow her
14 июл 19 написано членом: Kenna Morton
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Try Food Addicts Anonymous in Recovery my friend. They have a real answer. Their mantra: we are addicted to flour, sugar and quantity. We weigh and measure our food, we attend 3 meetings a week and we report our food daily to a qualified food sponsor .
There are NO dues or fees. NO weigh ins. Take the 20 question test to self diagnose.
Website is foodaddicts.org
Please check it out. This is an addiction like alcoholism is an addiction..there is help and hope. People in this program have lost literally hundreds of pounds and kept them off.
Based on AA and it's 12 Steps.
14 июл 19 написано членом: DianneGardner
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Grats on finding your way back. May I join you on this journey? Friends are a blessing and the good ones are worth cherishing. 🤗
14 июл 19 написано членом: Chow moore
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This speaks to me so accurately I'm surprised I didn't write it.
14 июл 19 написано членом: FullaBella
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14 июл 19 написано членом: rosio19
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In late 2010 I started food journal and counting calories. I lost 100 pounds in less than 6 months. I was so proud. I had the knowledge to never be fat again. Fast forward to July 2019 and I weighed myself at 320 pounds. Biggest I had ever been in my life. You and I have beat this before and we will beat it again. Let’s do this.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Slmshdy
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Simshdy— yes you can loose the weight again and again and again. This time try to focus on changing your lifestyle and creating new, permanent habits. It’s hard, I know, but that is what it takes to win this game once and for all. It can be done. I have worked with people who are as much as 250 lb overweight and they have maintained that loss for 20 years. You can do it too. We are cheering for you.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Kenna Morton
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I have did this so many times. I have committed myself to stay with it this time my highest weight 378 now 345.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Diamond Quarters
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Sounds exactly like me. I avoid the scale when I am not eating the way I should. And if I don't log it's because I don't want to track the things I shouldn't be eating. Unless I am weighing myself, eating like I should and logging the food I just go back to old habits and always gain back whatever I've lost.
14 июл 19 написано членом: Fritzy 22
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I really enjoyed reading this 😘 please keep journaling
14 июл 19 написано членом: KayBuckaroo
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Thank you all for the wonderful responses. I am going to just say this...I have a ton of work ahead of me. No pun intended!
14 июл 19 написано членом: Fatboy199
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You are doing something right since you got focused; keep up the good work!
15 июл 19 написано членом: erikahollister
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@KayBuckaroo, that meant a lot to me, thank you.
15 июл 19 написано членом: Fatboy199
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