1982nodak- Журнал, 25 фев 19

At the rate I'm losing I don't think it will happen but I was really hoping to be down to 185 (the weight I was when I got married 5 years ago) by our family summer vacation where we rented a lake cabin and are going to be on the water the entire time. That is the skinniest my husband has ever known me because when we met I was 215. I lost for a year maintained for a year and then my thyroid went crazy, then I was pregnant, then my thyroid, then I was pregnant and finally my thyroid has been working for the last 2.5 months. It is time now to get back to 185 now that my thyroid is working and I'm not pregnant. I really want to look decent at the lake as my mom is like a size 4 and my sister and sister in law are both size 8s. My Aunt who also comes is like a size 6. I don't know I mean no matter what I will be the biggest person there, but I guess I just felt like I would be less embarrassed over my body if I lose. And my oldest son is getting old enough that he has asked questions like why I have a big belly and daddy doesn't and why Nana is isn't squishy and mama is.

Summer is coming and last summer at the park each weekend he wanted me to go down the slide and it was really hard to fit. This summer I want to fit. I want to have a good life with my kids and I don't want to miss out on things because of my weight. And I don't want to embarrass my kids due to my weight now that they are becoming aware. My sister's son when she got up to a size 10 started crying and asking my sister not to come to his sporting event and when she finally got him to admit why it was because all of the other moms were skinny and she had gained weight and other boys had made comments and he was embarrassed and didn't want to be embarrassed he simply wanted to play with his friends. It stung and she lost and got back to a size 8. I'm a size 18/20. How embarrassed will my kids be? I have to drop weight more quickly. I have to be more committed to a healthy lifestyle.