SelinaMinus60- Журнал, 18 май 10

be warned this journal may include some emoness and bad one eyed spelling!

Ok so operation at the moment seems to have been a success, as in im not blind however i am still having trouble actually opening my eye because of the pain and aversion to light, the surgeon gave me 3 lots of eye drops to take 4 times everyday for 4 weeks. I hate eye drops especially ones that feel like they are setting fire to my eye ball!

This whole stupid eye malarky has really gotten my summer off on a downer, I havent been able to go to the gym because the lights are soo bright it kills plus i feel like a fool in my super sexy (erlack) patch. Tomorrow is my 22nd birthday people keep asking me what my plans are to be honest i think it will be sitting in bed sulking for most of the day! i do however intend to force myself to the gym to meet with my personal trainer she really made me feel good last Friday and i don't want to lose that motivation no matter how blind i am. she gave me a nutrition plan to follow which i have been trying its pretty good only had one slip up where i ate after 7 a slice of white bread and 2 squares od 76% dark chocolate nothing to kill myself over really!

On Friday i have two friends coming down to visit me in my hometown the plan was pub crawl *last time of drinking before the summer soberness* and then on to my fav club to celebrate my birthday i am refusing to give up the hope that my eye might be slightly better so that i can go i have an awesome pirate costume and im praying that my eye will last it out at least for some of the time.

erm lost my train of thought eye is hurting but thats a little update

on another note please all take a moment to think about a very special FS Member's son who is having surgery today MelbA my prayers are with you :) xx