oolala53- Журнал, 11 фев 08

2/11/08
My first day. Had to admit, the effect was interesting. it was close to, but not as "buzzy" as, the loss-of-appetite affect I got from the Adderall, which I quit because of that element. I didn't take it on the weekends and I'd just want to pig out. I thought whatever was speeding me up wasn't good.

today, even though I wasn't hungry, I did eat some cookies on the way home from work. that scared me a little. I have a class to go to from 7-9 and I ate a small dinner. Not sure I like that either, since I usually try not to eat a meal unless I am hungry. I doubted that I would get hungry, so I went ahead. i didn't want to skip dinner. Even if I'm not hungry, I don't want to go that many hours without food. Maybe I'd be willing to try it another day. I am so afraid of engaging the starvation mode effect. you don't have to be hungry to engage it. We'll see.